E-sens killin it

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Primary - 독 (Poison) (Feat.E-Sens)

Many memories piled with dust with time passed by
The poison filling up my body with time passing by
Lately it’s been growing worse in wanting to be more free and exactly half of me is dead
I can’t see it, but I believe it
For sure that I’ve felt it lead me before
I remember the beginning and empty out all the things that rotted me
I have to catch it, the things I lost
The long vacation up till now
The days when faith that was clenched tightly in my fist was all I said to have had and I’d ridicule everyone in being fearful and old
And now the opposite’s happened, they gave me fear
It was inevitable that I would eventually become like one of them
And it was then when reality told me to look straight
Although it wanted to run, it said that sitting was more comfortable
Every time it’d lie to both me and you

Thanks to the comfort like cigarettes, I was able to grasp my mentality a little
The hidden message behind becoming an adult is just hypnosis and it’s never becoming clearer
I’m just living in my comfort zone and it’s as if I’m a dog being tied away
I only learned these kinds of things
I was fearful for the watch of others as much as I feared gaining courage
I was tired of those states so I told them to go just away
Where my belief pulls me is this place, right here, my home, the place where I become complete
You can ridicule me all you want for you being nothing but an empty shell with your dreams tossed aside whenever an opportunity comes your way
You can hide your failure in pretending to care about me
You, who doesn’t want to get hurt is all, stay still
You say that its common sense and it’s a world where cowardliness is a cure
Instead of you, I give respect to everyone who has scars and celebrate to those who overcame it

I’ve fallen into a deep hole before
Pretending to live without any problems to my family and friends
The loath and arrogance of mine that mixed together
I didn’t even like the eyes that looked at me from my own reflection
The depletion of passion
The behaviors that I detested more than anyone
Now that it’s become my problem, I feel like dying
I can’t really feel other things
I’ve seen myself mess up but I can’t find it to kill myself
But back then, it didn’t seem like a waste if I threw away everything I had somewhere far away
I wore myself out from digging like a maniac in finding things that can comfort me
Peace never had a relation with me
I lingered in raising my voice to hide my insecurities and grew angry when talks of pride were brought up, making me dizzy
It was a time where I didn’t even know who was next to me
At the time, I didn’t believe in god but I couldn’t believe in my messed-up self so for quite a while, I couldn’t grasp life
Mornings never felt refreshing no matter how many hours I slept
The anxiety and pressure that crushed my youth
Foam, traps, and temptations that came instead of opportunities
All those factors faced from the front; the next time I’ll make sure to hold onto those I lost from the beginning

If I try to catch up hurriedly, I slowly begin to forget which one is me
If you have to stop, then stop now
Because we lose those important to us too often

CJENMMUSIC & Uncharted Sound

Comments

[dippz.livejournal.com]

People stay sleeping on E-sens because of Simon D

But he is amazing...........

One of the best....

[frequency.livejournal.com]

i was just thinking the other day how much i missed him. e-seeeeens.

[gogoparty.livejournal.com]

screeching because my baby

[newlines.livejournal.com]

he's back?! i hope korea's still not hating on him for the drug thing :(

oh how i missed youuuu

[emerymoon.livejournal.com]

All the feels.

[seung-is-my-ho.livejournal.com]

woah. great song, the lyrics are very profound, they really got to me. yay primary!! dude I thought e-sens had fallen of the face of the earth for awhile. hope this means supreme team is back in the works.

[daylight-broke.livejournal.com]

Immensely beautiful song. Wow.