Leeteuk cries while talking about his childhood

[hisjulliet.livejournal.com]

It was recently announced that MBC would be airing a special documentary about Super Junior titled, "MBC Special - Super Junior Dreams of a K-Pop Legend." The special was aired on April 27, and it featured Super Junior’s concert in France that was held on April 6, as well as the heartfelt personal stories of the members.

When asked what difficulties he faced before he debuted, it took a while before Lee Teuk could say anything. After several minutes of crying, he finally said said, “During my five years of being a trainee, I wondered if I’d be able to debut, why I was so unfortunate, and thought that if I were born in a wealthier household I would be happier....” as he thought back about his time as a trainee.

He continued, “I’ve never talked about this before....my parents had a bad relationship. There was a lot of that before. They fought a lot, and I got hit a lot, too,” as he shed tears.” Also, “When I was in elementary school, there was a lot of stress from that, and I was fearful of and disliked my father. As a result, I wondered if this (being a trainee) was what was right for me, and I wanted to be successful quickly.”



In the clip below, there is also a short segment of fellow member Donghae's interview. He cries as he talks about his father. He mentions how he still has his father's number on his phone and still looks at it during the times when he misses his father's voice the most, such as birthday, award ceremonies, and holidays.

*Edited with English Subs

Leeteuk @ 13:45

Donghae @ 5:15

Source: Soompi / Source Video from MaiteCryrus @ Youtube
English Sub Videos 1 & 2 from Nayaonewluv2  @ Youtube

Comments

[erisinia.livejournal.com]

I still remember that "5000 Questions" show or whatever where they got psychoanalyzed and Teukie was like "WOAH HOW DID YOU KNOW?" when the doctor asked him if he'd had some kind of childhood trauma. I still remember it because Heechul looked legitimately worried about it.

Him having a rough upbringing kind of explains some things, like how desperate he is for attention and praise and how he is so quick to shift according to other people's suggestions. He's not a bad guy but he definitely has some issues. I hope the army will be a nice break for him. (and what kind of industry is this that i say that with zero irony? >.<)

[canttakeabreath.livejournal.com]

you said everything i'd ever want to say about this. this video is so hard to watch--he just speaks so haltingly and looks so shattered in a sense, like he's shocked that this still affects him, and i just hope he gives himself a break one of these days. he's so incredibly hard on himself and i genuinely wish he'd never been picked as super junior's leader sometimes. i think he'd be so much happier if someone else took control every once in a while (why i always loved the kangteuk bromance). ♥

one of the things about leeteuk for me is that whenever he bursts into tears out of the blue he's so mortified about it? like he hides his face and rushes offstage and even here he's trying not to smudge his stage makeup even as he's basically sobbing. idk sometimes i just think he's really emotionally repressed, and, as you said, i just hope the release of his duty as sj's leader destresses him and gives him a chance to calm down and maybe find a positive outlet for all of his feelings.

[in-noctem.livejournal.com]

I wonder how Leeteuk will be like in the army, especially since he said he feels lonely when he has no schedules to attend. And I hope he finds comfort in the fact that his members genuinely seem to love him.

Donghae talking about his dad was just sad in general but I couldn't contain my feelings when he said he still kept his dad's phone number :'(

[xxmannequin.livejournal.com]

poor leeteuk. ehh we have something in common. it really pains me to see donghae cry, because he obviously loved his father a lot, and had a great relation ship with him, which of I am kind of jealous.

[lazmy.livejournal.com]

we had/have a very similar circumstances. despite leeteuk's imperfections and general stupidity most of the time, nobody (not even him, depending on how you look at him) deserved to have a broken home and a scary childhood.
i feel bad for him tbh

[eccentricvibe.livejournal.com]

mte

[falling-empress.livejournal.com]

i don't speak spanish >....>

[hisjulliet.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, I couldn't find an English sub version anywhere

[black-silver.livejournal.com]

aww teukie i didn't know that :(

[leeteuk.livejournal.com]

neither :(

[gumdrop-showers.livejournal.com]

I may not like Super Junior anymore, but no one deserves to grow up like that. I really hope he talks to a professional about the way he feels because it really feels like he represses all those negative emotions until it just comes spilling over the surface. If he doesn't seek some form of help, I worry that it might just break him. :/ Thankfully he's got a strong support system in the other Super Junior members.

[sayufied.livejournal.com]

Really OT, and I'm sorry to bring this up.

But, do you think seeking professional help will help? I mean it honestly, because my family life is/was in nowhere close to the "bliss, happy, white picket fence" type. And I don't really think about it, nor do I talk about it to anyone.

But reading your comment got me thinking, maybe one day I will explode...So, do you really think that it would be the right thing for him to do?

I'm really sorry >< It's out of the blue and weird, but I'm a bit confuzzled lol >

[samunin.livejournal.com]

no one should have to go through any of that... :(
i may not understand fully but i know what it's like to witness your parents always arguing...and my dad was an alcoholic...not to mention moved out and moved back in multiple times as i was growing up...i even now know more things about my dad that i didn't before..and i always have conflicted feelings...as if i should hate or dislike him or something..but i can't...because i'm not that kind of person...
i am sort of jealous of donghae's good relationship he had with his father.... :/
and sorry for his loss...

[sayufied.livejournal.com]

Omg, gurrrl *hugs*!!! Same experience, UNDERSTAND %100!!
All the signs point towards hating my dad, but I CAN'T!!

now know more things about my dad that i didn't before

I totally understand what you're going through, and I get what you mean by this sentence :( !!

[purring-feline.livejournal.com]

This is heartbreaking.

[devilstay.livejournal.com]

Yep. I have always suspected that his childhood and relationship with his father was something like this. It explains to me why he is always so keen to please, and to be liked. Leeteuk can drive me right up the goddamn wall on a bad day, and yet I find it kind of hard to ever just be like 'gtfo'. I wonder exactly how much his father hit him. I don't agree with physical discipline at all, and can only hope that father wasn't the type that took hitting him as a form of stress relief. He never talks about his father either, and know my thoughts have been confirmed.

I'm sorry Leeteuk, I hope the army does you well. You need to rest, guiding Suju in this industry wasn't, and isn't a job for the weak-hearted, and despite my conflicted feels on you, you've done a good job on them.

[anconeous.livejournal.com]

Must've been hard for Teuk to grow up in an environment like that, much more 'cause he's alone since his noona studied abroad for years. Maybe it's why Teuk is so damn invested in his idol world, from training to debuting to prolonging it as much as he can.

Donghae was just so heartbreaking to watch. I can feel his genuine sadness emanating through my laptop screen. :(

[hyukjies.livejournal.com]

As an ELF, my heart breaks into millions of pieces because of this video ;____;. But Eeteuk is not the only one, and it shows that familial problems are engraved on the children's heart, no matter how they try to forget it....

[figus204.livejournal.com]

I was really close to tears when I saw this part and I really, really feel for him because no one should have to be raised in a home like that. I also wonder how he will do in the army since he himself said that he feels lonely after a concert or when a schedule ends and thus tries to pack his schedule full with activities... Hopefully it'll be a time when he'll be able to "relax" and have a bit of a break from his life as an idol.

[muzegrey.livejournal.com]

I think this is the first time I've ever seen Lee Teuk express genuine emotion.

[dirtybeauty.livejournal.com]

I don't think it's ethic to show this part of him. Selling drama is not good. Making people talk about their past while they cry their hearts out and recorder it in order to sell more is just so disrespectful I can't even... I'm sorry, maybe I'm the only one thinking like this. But I've been through similar circustances and I would hate to talk about it as if my past was a piece of meat.

[prismboy.livejournal.com]

mte.

[hitsujiga.livejournal.com]

so heartbreaking :(
sometimes i think a big bunch of the idol industry is a cluster of lonely, depressed and/or traumatized kids.....which is probably true?

[kris-kt.livejournal.com]

very sad to watch :(

[islandgurl84.livejournal.com]

*HUG ABRAZO*

[pladpuss.livejournal.com]

Poor baby shouldn't have his personal struggles shown for all eyes to see. :/

[xxkumorixx.livejournal.com]

D: looks like he suffered at the hands of having toxic parents. poor guy..i feel you on that one. all those repressed emotions

[simplyobessed.livejournal.com]

gosh. I just wanna give them both a hug. ;_;

[sisterjune.livejournal.com]

Oh fuck, I don't want to feel bad for Leeteuk now I so dont like him. but this is really damn sad, and I'm not made of stone. I don't have a super nice home life either but I kind of repress everything. I'm surprised he was ok talking about this on camera, i wouldnt be able to do that. I hope he finds some peace in his life. So is this documentary just Leeteuk and Donghae or will there be other parts involving other members? I'd be interested to hear about Heechul since he's my fave member in Suju (or rather the only one I really like at all)

[msdaccxx.livejournal.com]

The whole doc is up and subbed at http://omonatheydidnt.livejournal.com/9071100.html

No Heechul, though, as it's just about their Paris show

[edanz-castle.livejournal.com]

In some way's I really understand what Leeteuk was going through. This only makes me understand/love him more! SAGHDHASDSAHASDHSAGH I wish I could give him a hug!

[nha2licious.livejournal.com]

Oh, wow. I can relate to DongHae actually. I still have my dad's phone number, which my mom still uses in case any of his friends try to contact him without knowing he already passed away. And I still want to hear my dad's voice everytime his caller id light up on my phone (although I know it's my mom calling ;_;).

And hearing Leeteuk's childhood memories is just heartbreaking. I just wanna hug him so tight and cry together.

[stillwaiting.livejournal.com]

This literally explains why Leeteuk is the way he is. He wants the attention and wants love cuz he never had it before. The poor guy has been lonely his whole life and had to suffer with parents that didn't love him. No wonder he never talks about his dad and rarely speaks about his mom. He has had such a rough life. It saddens me that he says he constantly needs schedules so he doesn't feel lonely, it has gotten that bad for him that he needs to works himself to death in order to not feel lonely. He is really such a fragile person :\