Daesung, "I got so stressed cos I could never say 'no'."

[tabi.livejournal.com]

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Daesung (22, Real name: Kang Daesung) was hard on himself, thinking that he wasn’t as good as the others when it came to preparation for their debut. But the result of his hard effort and training was the formation of ‘vocal cord nodules’, which announced the possible end of his singing career.



”When we debuted, we were dubbed the ‘skill-based idol group’ but my voice would break 8 times out of 10 when singing our song ‘La La La’. I couldn’t even look at the others in the eye. I developed sociophobia and even started thinking stuff like ‘It would be better if I was just fired from YG’.”

For nearly a year, he desperately struggled with his voice. He was so nervous about screwing up on a high note on stage and giving the group a bad name when they had just debuted, that it caused him to develop stage fright on top of everything else.

”I was so gloomy that the members couldn’t even tease me lightheartedly. People tell me I was clouded by a dark vibe at the time. Noone could approach me and it was to the point that it was difficult for them to even try to tell me ‘It’s ok’.”

But Daesung got help from his senior Gummy (Real name: Park Ji Yeon) who had also experienced the same pain, and his vocal folds cured miraculously during the 6 months of rest after the release of their first album.

”I learnt a lot doing musicals. My stage fright disappeared after continually performing live on stage too. Since I was in singing academy, I’ve always thought anything is possible as long as you try hard enough.”

Daesung’s naïveté also caused him a lot of trouble. He’s the type to work hard on his own, keeping his emotions to himself no matter how unpleasant the task so he subconsciously stacked up a lot of stress.

”Even if I don’t want to, I can’t refuse people very well. I don’t like being called bad things, or saying ‘no’ to others. My inner personality is one that gets angered really easily but I must’ve been holding it all in without even realising. I went to an acupuncturist and they said I have anger disease. (laughs) The doctor there asked me why a young person like myself was so stressed out. I was surprised too.”

When he thinks back to his childhood, he wasn’t always smiling. He says it even feels like he had to put on a ‘smiling mask’ in front of cameras and the public since his debut in the entertainment industry.

The time after his debut that he spent waiting to be on broadcasts was irritating and exasperating for Daesung. And though these feelings slowly faded away after trying to comfort himself and repeatedly telling himself to ‘think on the bright side’, his emotions must have stacked up deep down within him without him even realising.



Sources:
Original article
Translation by s.jayx@BBVIP.net

Comments

[wrongbyright.livejournal.com]

All I can say is that dang, Dae got it really bad during the debut period. :/

[daesung-fanatic.livejournal.com]

AWE!

Poor Oppa!

*huggles the computer screen as if that will help*

[desty-chan.livejournal.com]

your icon is perfect for this <3

[matsujoongie93.livejournal.com]

He reminds me a lot of Yunho in this part of the article.

They're both very wonderful men indeed

[decodexx.livejournal.com]

Dae. ):

Poor baby.

[kawaiiairbender.livejournal.com]

:( aww that's so sad. I'm glad he's better now. <3

also, Gummy <33

[awesomeful.livejournal.com]

Poor Daesung. D: I hope he doesn't ever have to feel that way again.

[hyunkyu11.livejournal.com]

oh, Dae <3

I really love these interviews, they are so awesome and insightful.

[meccamputech.livejournal.com]

poor dae dae :(
is every member getting a multi-part interview?

[hina.livejournal.com]

I think just Dae, GD and Dara are part of this series of interviews.

[dysphoriia.livejournal.com]

nalbwa nalbwa daesung!

adorable.

[asteri5k.livejournal.com]

super cute kid. ♥

[emmapemma321.livejournal.com]

awww no =( i just wanna give him a big hug. he is so sweet and seems to have gone thru a lot during his debut days

[bubbliciouz.livejournal.com]

I'm glad he didn't give up, because in the end it worked out for everybody, especially the fans :D

yay Daesung for persevering!

[centric-xx.livejournal.com]

as long as he's okay now :)

(http://tinypic.com)

[xperfect-lines.livejournal.com]

I really love interviews like this :3 Makes one realize that people don't get in the business ~that~ easily and it's really hard for them too.

ILU DAESUNG~!

[t-domination.livejournal.com]

I would have never thought that Dae was all sensitive and whatnot during debut days .. he was always smiling o_O thank you Gummy <3
These interviews are pretty interestingg~

[ribbon2sky.livejournal.com]

aww ): poor Dae <3

gosh these interviews are great, it makes me realize how awesome he is

[prdarkstar.livejournal.com]

Gummy seems like a great person. She's always there supporting the guys.

I did think Dae wasn't one to say "no" to people after watching him on Family Outing. Poor bb, he's been through a lot.

[brianathebard.livejournal.com]

I feel bad saying no to anybody, too... which is why I'm so stressed out at the moment =A=;;

The more these interviews come out, the more I find I have in common with Daesung, which isn't really a bad thing.

[mskatness.livejournal.com]

These interviews break my heart. It's so easy to forget that idols are people who struggle just as much as the rest of us; they have to go through it in the public eye. I admire Daesung's determination to keep going, keep up the good work.

[callmeliyah.livejournal.com]

*hugs Daesungie*
Poor guy :(!! I love his smile <3 He's so strong >.

[glider.livejournal.com]

Even if I don’t want to, I can’t refuse people very well.

oh

dae ♥

[chasethesiness.livejournal.com]

Oh I understand where he's coming from re: never saying no. I have this issue now :(

[shingyeen.livejournal.com]

ohh yes me too. :( i always ended up agreeing or saying yes even though its the last thing i want to.

[kmrawr.livejournal.com]

I can relate...With the saying no part, because even with fully functional vocal cords, I sound like a dying cat, ;___;

Daesung is so awesome.

[changxiangsi.livejournal.com]

I've been having some problems with my throat lately, as well. Really scratchy and hoarse all the time. I can't afford to see a doctor for it, though. I've always thought Daesung was the best singer in Big Bang, tbh. People keep telling me he's the useless member but I totally disagree =/

[xoxgoodbye.livejournal.com]

WTF. I'm new to Big Bang and I fucking love his voice. He's practically my Big Bang version of Kyuhyun LOL.

Sending you my Hugs Daesung!

[thirddyfrk.livejournal.com]

Poor baby>n< You made me love ya all the more.
Plus, am I the only one who thought that his inability to say "no" is a good thing? I mean, heck if he can't say no, I sure want to meet him and ask him out.LOL

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Poor baby>n< You made me love ya all the more.
Plus, am I the only one who thought that his inability to say "no" is a good thing? I mean, heck if he can't say no, I sure want to meet him and ask him out.LOL <wicked perv fan gal poppin' out again>