[TRANS] 100212 To Shim Changmin, By Shim Changmin

[locofruitcake.livejournal.com]

T/N: NeverEnd is Changmin's fanclub.

NeverEnd: This was revealed on 7 February during Changmin's birthday party; a letter written by Changmin to himself. Many thanks to Sarah who wrote it down to share with us and showed us Changmin's gradual growth. Below is the complete letter.

To Shim Changmin:

You always wish to have a modest appearance. Although it can be said to be a postive aspect of you, but on the other hand, there are times when you show a complete opposite side, so there are often times when you worry about yourself... but recently, I've started to have the mindset of appreciating myself and to be proud of myself, so it can be considered a really lucky thing.

Although in the past, it was exactly as what everyone said: I used to live while looking inward and constantly stressing out, making it harder for myself... but in future, I want to have more faith in myself and live my life like that... Didn't I have the misguided thinking that I was born without a choice on who my parents would be? So, work harder!

Even though I said before: The old me faced many different choices, but the present and future me, will still have many choices that I have to face. In future, no matter what I encounter, no matter who I have to stand before, I want to do the right thing and make the correct choice like I have done so far. Also, as long as I can become a person who stands firm with the right choices I make, that would be good. Of course, I might feel tired because of these choices and I might encounter many difficult things... but if that is the price I have to pay in making the right choice, even if I have to accept punishment, I will break through all these difficulties and ultimately receive wisdom and knowledge.

I think this attitude I have towards life is something I learned from my parents. Although I still have to learn to face up to reality, but no matter how difficult it is, if I cannot make a right choice then I'll have to shake off those options decisively, and from that, become a wiser, more knowledgeable and confident me. In future, won't there be choices that will make me become like that? Haven't I become an artist now? To be an artist as an occupation... Although I've been an artist for a few years, even though there are still many things that I don't fully understand, but I still show my candid side when I appear in front of everyone. There's also a side of me that even I don't know about; aren't there times where I also have to show a side of myself that is not me?

To be honest, this is not something that I dreamed about when I was a child... Who I am now... I often have this thought... "If I'm not doing what I'm doing now, what else can I do? Would I have become a son that constantly causes his parents to worry?" The things that I am doing now may not make people feel exceptionally proud or seem fulfilling. However, don't I still pass each day happily, looking forward to a better tomorrow?

It allowed me to see a beautiful world that I didn't know about and awakened the person that I am now... Teacher Lee Soo Man... SM Family still holds the same gratitude in our hearts, so never change^^ If you are still the person that you are now, the heartfelt gratitude we have towards you will never change...

Now I'm also in my twenties... Compared to others who are of the same age, I had to start working a little earlier and I didn't get to experience the things that they went through... But isn't there a saying, "you gain something when you lose something", this phrase is not said without reason. I always do my utmost best to fulfil my responsibilities to try and carve an even better future for myself. I want to expand further, so let me continue to better myself.

When I think of that I will do everything passionately... even though there are many people in the world who look at me enviously... Instead of always trying to hide from these prying eyes, I think I should do things that are honest to what I really feel and to have a youth which is filled with passionate love when I date someone! Even though it's not an easy task and there might be failures... but I can experience the feelings and passion that belong to my age... I don't want to miss a thing. I think this is a way to make me work harder to become even more passionate... Even if I fail, I still think this way... Career and love... Like what I said before, I don't want to miss out on anything anymore... But, if I make a mistake when it comes to relationships, it will become even more dangerous...

In order to have better judgement, I will make decisive choices with a judgement that is as sharp as a blade. I will become a youth that is even more passionate and hardworking than others... I'll work hard to be even more passionate and rational...

Let's always work hard...

From Shim Changmin
January 2010

Source: [baidutvxq]
Translation credits: mandasoh @ tohosomnia 
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Comments

[hyungwhore.livejournal.com]

Always proud~

[under-an-oak.livejournal.com]

*snerk* your LJ username... XD I love it.

[hoyah.livejournal.com]

Teacher Lee Soo Man... SM Family still holds the same gratitude in our hearts, so never change^^ If you are still the person that you are now, the heartfelt gratitude we have towards you will never change...

;^; SM family love~

And it sounds like Min wants a girlfriend, lol.

[locofruitcake.livejournal.com]

He should, it's been too long~ He'll never get back the lost time, but it's not too late to start now :P

[mei-zi.livejournal.com]

I love this boy. <3

[-ochre.livejournal.com]

;____;

How often do we see idols with so much self-analysis of themselves?

[hoyah.livejournal.com]

often enough if you are a dbsk fan~ kekeke

[yuukihitohira.livejournal.com]

I like that he wrote to himself XD But seriously, this was sweet and really showed us a side of him that we dont get to see much. You need to talk more love!!!!!!! (and not just the snark we know and love so much :3)

[xshinebrighterx.livejournal.com]

my baby <3
i can't help to think that by 'making the right choice' he means 'staying in sm' who he calls family. *sigh* and it just supports my theory that they both chose to stay with sm and aren't being kept as prissioners as some fans put it.

it all makes things so complicated but.... as he said "you gain something when you lose something" we need to look forward to a positive future, right?

but it's so hard to hold back the tears and be positive and just, stop holding on to my selfish desire to see them back as they were
must i let go of it?

[xshinebrighterx.livejournal.com]

after the 'what's a fan' post, i'm so emotional tonight ;-;

[under-an-oak.livejournal.com]

You go bb. We only live once. Let's not regret our choices! I'm gonna remember your words as well, to help me, yours and everyone in Toho are wonderful examples of hard work and tough decisions. Fighto! Woot!

/goes back to wrestling with her spreadsheets ;__;

[cloaked.livejournal.com]

i loved this.
but now i have that song stuck in my head 'and i don't want to miss a thing ~~'

[the-lazy-one.livejournal.com]

AWW!! ily, Changmin! ^^

Kinda ot, but I read the last sentence as "I'll work hard to be even more passionable and rational"

LMAO note to self: read more slowly.

[jongina.livejournal.com]

LMAO. 8D A+ bb.

[breathe-ai.livejournal.com]

Oh this boy ♥

[shiddex.livejournal.com]

he sounds as though he's in love. or something. ah. he's so great.

[thegreencloud.livejournal.com]

If he's doing what he believes is right then good for him. I hope that all the members find some peace of mind and happiness in 2010.

I'm glad that this was translated (:

[locofruitcake.livejournal.com]

Glad to be of service 8D

[strawberry-efeu.livejournal.com]

I love you Changmin my boy, but who the hell writes a letter to themselves and proceeds to publish it somewhere? I don't even know man...

But besides that...the letter is interesting. I'm not going to keep thinking about it or I'll start forming conspiracy theories.

[locofruitcake.livejournal.com]

Lol. It was revealed during the birthday celebration that NeverEnd did for him, so it's sort of a "close door" publication? :3

[freed-misery.livejournal.com]

This is so reflective, I almost feel like I'm intruding. Stay awesome Changmin <3
Now I feel like I should write a letter to myself... hmm

[memoryofsunday.livejournal.com]

So, does anyone think this has anything to do with the lawsuit? Trying to limit my over-analysis here. lmfao

All in all, I think this is pretty adorable and he breaks my heart. I miss that little bugger. ]:

[strawberry-efeu.livejournal.com]

I tried to limit my over-analysis but it didn't work at all. :( My brain just broke thinking about the things that letter could imply.

[pretzel-knot.livejournal.com]

BAWWW CHANGMIN. I LOVE THIS BOY.

[kissthecoffin.livejournal.com]

oh my bb. ;________;

zbhjvskfajb as always. you leave me speechless and ridiculously happy.

[halina-89.livejournal.com]

Changmin is so clever and deep with his thoughts.
He seems to long for a girlfriend. I hope he finds one! I'm already on my way out there, Changmin! :D

[volatilewind.livejournal.com]

I really liked reading this! I kinda want to know what other idols think about themselves, their career, and what they want for the future to.

Compared to others who are of the same age, I had to start working a little earlier and I didn't get to experience the things that they went through...

This part depressed me tho, thinking about all the other young idols out there.

[cherrieeme.livejournal.com]

THIS!

IS BEAUTIFUL ♥♥

[shunluv.livejournal.com]

Changmin<3333333
please never change^.^
he is my bias in DBSG :P

[tribuo-venerati.livejournal.com]

I always felt like he was the type of guy who grew up too fast and put his work in front of everything. He seems like the type of guy that thinks much deeper and much more than the average person. I really hope that he experiences that passionate love that he says he wants to experience. It'll make him a better person and an even better artist.

[aunts.livejournal.com]

"you gain something when you lose something", this phrase is not said without reason.

As hoyah stated, oblig 'LOOKING AT IT THROUGH A LAWSUIT FILTER SGLKHDA;GJAE.' comment. :P

I'll work hard to be even more passionate and rational...

Lol OFC because making people your elders bow to your fucking feet and call you 'hyung' is anything but rational. Oh this kid. ;___; ♥

[dominique-franc.livejournal.com]

sounds like he wants to get some lol.


anyway I love this boy.

[walnuuut.livejournal.com]

ROFL

[ninja-starshine.livejournal.com]

;_____; i love him so much