Former U-Kiss member Xander had enough and gives a sincere message to his fans and haters

[juhli.livejournal.com]

In my 10s, I’ve learnt to stand up for myself, to unleash the vanity in me, and to walk a different path. In my 20s, I’ve learnt to build myself, to socialize, to survive in the showbiz and jungle-like society. Years of training, learning, hardship, success, and failure brought me to where I am now. I must say, 29 years of life lesson made me who I am, and yet I have more to improve and upgrade. Most older people told me that I’m still young and I have a lot yet to experience, and I agree with that. It’s a new stage and I’m very excited. Yes, I’m finally 30. I just wanna thank God for the blessings I have so far, and I would like to thank my family, friends, co-workers, fans, haters, for helping me build who I am until now.

For the first time, and just for once in 30 years, I would like to finally say something daring. I won’t regret. I just wanna be uglily real for once. If you don’t like harsh words, I advice you to leave now. :) Since I’m finally 30, it’s another milestone in my life and I wanna set things right. Here are few steps I wanna make:

The FIRST step. I take FULL CONTROL of my life and work. Sick and tired of people telling me what’s best for me when they keep f*cking up things. It is time for me to take full responsibility for whatever I do. One thing I learnt: Trust your own instinct and gut feelings. Trust ONLY GOD but no one. Trust me, it’s hard, but you’ll learn to do that.

The SECOND step. I am NOT a typical Korean idol anymore. Categorize me as a ‘성인돌 (adult-dol)’. What does it mean? No more image making, censorship, and the way I’ll talk is gonna be damn REAL without sugarcoating. For example? “This food tastes like shit.” Don’t wow at me. I’m human. Time to be real. Well, call me ‘돌아이’, I don’t mind.

THIRD step. I am NOT here to PLEASE anyone anymore. Complain about my looks, my clothes, my behavior, etc? Do you really think a person can really please the WHOLE world? Of course NOT! So, I’m not manly enough? SUCK IT UP, that’s ME. Yes I might look gay for you but sorry that’s the way I am! And I will say this only once: I’m not gay so stop trying to bring me shit (accusations, hate comments, blind items, etc) to bring me down. Like I have to show u a sex video of me with a va jay jay to prove huh? Won’t even waste my time justifying myself. Aside from that, what’s wrong with being gay? You think people choose to be gay? Stop judging others. You are not God. And only God knows the reason and the answer why. Furthermore, even if I go to a gay bar, so what? Being straight or being gay, people will say the same shit like “He’s gay”. So sick and tired of it. You know? Some people who stay home could be more lustful or immoral. Grow up. Anyway, conclusion, if you don’t like me then sorry that I don’t fit your taste, there are many other dishes out there for you, so bon appetit.

Alright. That’s all I wanna say. Whether I delete these posts or not, at least my words reached the public already, and you know what’s in my head. I call this freedom of speech, my right to be a human even if I am an artist.

From now on, I just wanna be real. I promised myself to live as a human testimony for God. I’m human. No human is perfect. But I will be the imperfect human living out his life to show the love of God. Won’t even hard-sell you about Christianity. Will just let you see it yourself through my life.

For the rest of you who are still here with me, I promise I will work harder to improve myself to be a better man: as a son, a brother, a friend, an entertainer, a Christian. Thank you so much for the past 30 years. Love you all and can’t wait to continue my journey together. God bless you, me, us. #Xander #Alexander #AlexanderLee#AlexanderLeeEusebio #30 #30isTheNew20#milestone #sinceremessage #thankfulheart#iLoveYou #hatersgonnahate #iHaveDoneEnough

Just to clarify, NOTHING happened to me. Years ago, I’ve always wanted to break free and say such things on Instagram. But I held myself, told myself I’ll wait till once I turn 30. Now I’m finally 30, so I did it. For those who r still with me, thank you and love you all. :)

— ALEXANDER 알렉산더♔ (@alexander_0729) July 31, 2018

The THREE steps are basically: WORK, MYSELF, and PEOPLE. Funny how most viewers only reacted to the 3rd step, PEOPLE. Anyway... I feel really relieved, relaxed, and glad. Never thought that I could finally boldly speak up for myself. Felt uneasy, but feels so good now.

— ALEXANDER 알렉산더♔ (@alexander_0729) July 31, 2018

Source: xander0729 1 2 3, alexander_0729

Comments

[aures.livejournal.com]

good thing he stood up for himself

[jeit91.livejournal.com]

LMAO??

[pepsi-twist9.livejournal.com]

I don't really find this funny, I can't imagine the stress of perfecting an idol image. When Sechskies got back in the game you could see how wary some of them were of the idol life. They obviously don't have to control their image the way say NCT would but there's been moments where you can see them go wtf at idol culture.

[goshipgurl.livejournal.com]

Like I have to show u a sex video of me with a va jay jay to prove huh?
i snorted.

it's good that he finally stood up for himself, but it would be better without the "only god can judge me, i live for god" stuff.

[921227.livejournal.com]

Xander bby what's up? I'm glad he wrote this tbh, something must have registered to him that he needed to get off his chest and I appreciate that. Also, Xander has always been really into his faith so reading 'i wont even hard sell you about christianity' is really funny to me

I love my original multilingual idol

[sub-divided.livejournal.com]

Of course people are gonna talk about the third paragraph the most, it's addressed to shit-talking fans and about three times longer than the other two paragraphs, lol.

What's Xander up to these days?

[aures.livejournal.com]

i'm not sure /exactly/ but he is studying, i think he's finishing his master degree
he also works, he recently did a drama and he is doing events and stuff

[spread.livejournal.com]

You tell 'em, friend!

[petecarl.livejournal.com]

Ohmygod! This is why I'll always love Xander. Miss my U-KISS bbs.

[juhli.livejournal.com]

It's good that he's very religious but not against homosexuality.

[swhyeon1991.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I legit almost stopped reading when I saw the word God for the 2384739th time but I persevered lol.

[mntsuklaa.livejournal.com]

I love how he said he wants to be uglily real but won't properly spell fuck.
Also the not hard selling Christianity bit was really funny to me, I haven't really followed him since he left U-Kiss but I always got the impression he was very very religious so... Thanks? I guess.

Good for him! You do you, no fucks given to anyone else! It's sad that k-idols have to spend every micro second worrying about everything they say or do so I hope he gets to be more relaxed now!

[cinnamonbot.livejournal.com]

my right to be a human even if I am an artist
well said. all idols deserve this. it's unfortunate that fans act the way they do because it must be really demoralizing to feel like your life is controlled by thousands of people you've never even met..

[scionofawhisper.livejournal.com]

People still think of him as an idol?

I can't take this seriously cause he's mentions god so many times and it sounds like he should've waited til he was chillin' (he sounds pretty ragey here) to write this, but... man, I could never handle the fakeness of being an idol, I don't know how they do it.

Still... A bit dependent on context but “This food tastes like shit.” - sometimes you don't say that sorta stuff just to be polite, not cause you're an idol who has an image to keep. :x

idk, he sounds a bit too crazy here to really take anything seriously.

[krissasaur]

I will never understand religion, and he has always seemed a bit nuts to me when he talks about it, but "Won’t even hard-sell you about Christianity." made me laugh and tbh it is one reason I still love him because he never really has tried to force it on anyone.

I am honestly surprised he hasn't said all this sooner. He would do live streams a while back and kind of hint at this stuff but was never this blunt lmao. I have always wished he would go full on Jaesix tbh.

I hope he becomes happier.

[swhyeon1991.livejournal.com]

TELL HA

I hope someone tells him that it's ok to say "fuck."
Also cannot wait for the collab with Sunye!!

[bob-dabuilda.livejournal.com]

I'm weak at the sex tape part.

Good for him. Btw, anyone remember years ago when omona posted pics of him with condoms or a peen replica? Then his dad got mad so they took them down? Anyone have the pics, cause i never saw them.