Sunny writes about 2017 and coping with Jonghyun's death

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“It’s been a long time, right? Thanks to all of the people who sincerely worried about me and comforted me, I’ve gotten much better. So many things happened in 2017, and the year is soon coming to an end. Looking back, there are happy memories that still fill me with joy to this day, there are some memories that hurt me so much that I don’t want to face them, and there are some memories that have now faded and don’t affect me anymore. I guess that’s life.

I’m with my family right now. I have always felt grateful for all of the people around me who gave me great comfort, love, and happiness, giving me the strength to conquer each day. But I’m also so happy to have the opportunity to spend the end of the year with my whole family for the first time since I began working, and I have been learning to accept and heal my big and small wounds in the warmth of my family’s embrace. I’m taking care of myself, something I haven’t done in a long time. Thanks to the time I spent with my family these past few days, I have come to realize that no matter how sad and hurt we are, as long as we don’t lose the hope of being happy and joyful, we will be able to gain the strength to live through each other’s love. The bigger the pain, the stronger I will have become if I am able to overcome it. We are not alone in this world.

Of course, there are some things that we can only do by ourselves. But I hope that if there’s somebody out there who is distressed and grieving.. I hope they don’t think they are alone and aren’t in pain because of thoughts like that. I, too, have a bad habit of holding my pain in and pushing everyone around me away, but I will try to take care of myself better from now on.

I wonder what everyone who has given me more love than I deserve is doing right now as the year comes to an end. I hope you are not hurting because of past pains, and I hope you are able to find peace. No matter how everyone ends the year, I hope 2018 will be full of love and hope. With hopes that I will be able to spend the next year giving love instead of just receiving it, I will take care of my health and have a good mindset as I try to become a good person who spreads positivity to those around me. I hope everyone has a warm end of the year. Be happy~”


sources: 515sunnyday insta, translation by soompi

Comments

[yakuniku-8.livejournal.com]

Wise words.

[lechuza-yoya.livejournal.com]

very beautiful.

[xxhna.livejournal.com]

Well said.

[burningleaf.livejournal.com]

These words hit me right up the guts. Currently going through shit times with work and feeling majorly overwhelmed, reacting in a cowardly way, and while I don't think too far, I still feel like a useless waste of space. I don't know how to stop putting myself down, how to bring myself up, despite my age.

Thanks Sunny for saying something beautiful and warm. Even if it's not directed to me, it gave me fleeting comfort.

[nekokonneko.livejournal.com]

it's weird; i don't want anyone to be in pain but i still appreciate public acknowledgements of the fact that jonghyun's death is still on their minds :/

[sayufied.livejournal.com]

im the same, idk its weird, it sort of makes me feel a bit better to know that we're all still grieving, and no one is pretending like it never happened...
everyone worded their thoughts so eloquently, which comforts me so much to know Jonghyun had so many people who loved him unconditionally... thats mainly it, knowing how loved he was and still is...

[timetobegin.livejournal.com]

Sounds like she's in a good spot to be going through all these motions and emotions. Despite her happy image, Sunny has always struck me as the silent, sensitive type with alot of darkness. I hope jer family can give her comfort.

[audiograms.livejournal.com]

Sunny always seems to know what to say in times like this

[gathyou.livejournal.com]

I cried reading it. She has a way with words. I hope she's doing as fine as she's telling us and that she'll surrounded by love. She really had it rough and while she seemed to be better this year, I can't imagine how she could be feeling right now.

[jewelry-flower.livejournal.com]

Sunny bunny is a wise lady, and she knows what words she should say.

That is to say, I hope she has a warm and calm New Year, and she can heal herself well.

[bea-chan22.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that Sunny is taking care of herself in this difficult time.

[myungung.livejournal.com]

bless Sunny for these words. I'm glad she's in a much better place, and that she is able to open up more. I wish nothing but the best for her in 2018, where she can truly express more of what she wants to, even if it's not in a public space.