Taeyeon posts farewell message to Jonghyun on Instagram

[goshipgurl.livejournal.com]

That’s you, and there’s no one who won’t love you because there’s a different you. I like you a ton, I love you, I want to pat you on the back and I wanted to embrace you just one more time. That’s what I was able to do but I hate myself for regretting it like this after losing the opportunity. I’m so sad, it’s so wasteful, our precious Jonghyunnie. If I call and say your name, I feel like you’ll say “Yeah!” in a high tone, I miss you a lot, our Jonghyunnie. I’m sorry noona couldn’t hug you a lot, I’m sorry, I love you and thank you. I remember you saying that you wrote “Lonely” thinking of noona and all that process. We are similar. We resemble each other. We know those feelings. Kim Jonghyun, who is the most unique, cool and incredible artist in my life, I really miss you a lot and I want to hold your hand. Jonghyun-ah, you are the best. You really worked hard 🖤 I’ll make sure you’re not lonely.

sources: taeyeon's insta, @sonexstella

Comments

[byeolbyeol.livejournal.com]

she loved him so much. her pain is palpable, you can feel it in her words. this was beautifully written but i really hope she has someone holding her hand right now. from the reports i've read she was? or has been? at the funeral hall since either dawn yesterday or the night that he passed away with his family, the other members, lee soo man and lee jonghyun. i stress it again: she loved him so much. they had something special.

[redgreendress.livejournal.com]

Besides the other shinee members the whole time I've been thinking about her and Krystal and how crushed they must be. Just because those are the two I know he had a connection with, but there must have been so many others. He just seemed like the kind of guy to go around mentoring the youngsters and helping anyone who seemed to be in pain. And there's not that many other people that Taeyeon seems that close to, I don't know if she felt like a big sister to him or if there was just something like mutual artistic admiration, or a sense of kinship because they struggled with similar things...But I always thought they were two of a kind ever since I heard them talking about competing with each other as trainees. Their friendship was one of my favorite things in kpop.

[redgreendress.livejournal.com]

Shit I was holding it together until this. They really seemed close, like kindred spirits. I feel awful for everyone who knew him and loved him, the thought of losing someone I love to depression scares the shit out of me. I don't know if I could deal with the guilt on top of so much grief. I'm just completely heartbroken by all of this, I actually feel sick.

[xlovexlessxtyx.livejournal.com]

Bless her.
I really hope SM begins to do the work to make sure they're providing safe spaces for their employees and artists to talk to professionals or get help. Particularly in the fallout of this tragedy and in general for the future.

All of my prayers and good thoughts to his loved ones and anyone who is battling depression.

[yxerin.livejournal.com]

i desperately want to believe this too; that this will bring abt some genuine change, but the cynic in me is doubtful

[benihime99.livejournal.com]

Man, I hope SM is taking proper care of the artists
I know it's dumb to put "SM" and "proper care" in the same sentence, but I really hope they're being protective right now
I know they were close and I hope she has the necessary support to go through this

I can't help but think about artist like Suga and BYG and I hope they are well taken care of, especially now

[mewgical.livejournal.com]

I hope someones there for all of BTS. I saw they went to the funeral and according to what I read Taehyung looked really distraught.

[ababobaby.livejournal.com]

i cant help but be worried with the last line but this is such a beautiful message formed from a mutual understanding relationship. seeing them interact always made me smile. like he said, he is one with the sones. theyve gotten so much closer by doing duets together. to think he wrote those lyrics because he thought of her

this day has been tough. mom couldnt understand why i was crying. i wanted to grieve so i was on twitter most of the time. all the messages from other artists had me bawling every time. it just seems so surreal.

[theharleyquinn.livejournal.com]

I'm shaking from reading this. Like a lot of other people, I am very worried about Taeyeon right now. I hope people are looking out for her because this is truly a lot to handle given their connection. What she wrote was so touching and true. No one loves him less.

[snowyirees.livejournal.com]

I'm really worried about her.

[mylovebelt.livejournal.com]

this broke me all over again. you can tell how much taeyeon loved him, and she was a very, very special person for jonghyun. he loved her just as much. she's going to be hurting for a long time. i hope sm gives her the support and space she needs.

[staaan.livejournal.com]

her message to him was lovely, they really seem like kindred spirits. taeyeon has a pretty introspective and melancholy personality, herself, so they probably understood each other in ways other people couldn't.

i think people might be reading a bit too much into the last sentence. although it sounds ominous, she could just mean that she's going to keep him in her thoughts and visit his grave etc. i get why people are worried but twitter is slipping into borderline mass hysteria mode over this and i don't think anything good will come of it.

[sra-interesante.livejournal.com]

i remember years ago reading about milk club for deppresed idols on sm, i actually never saw jjong listed like one of them ... still .... things ended up like this *sigh*

because that last line sounds a bit weird, i hope sm is checking on former milk club members state

[ggumd.livejournal.com]

that last line is worrying me I hope she means that she will always remember him not that she will be joining him, she always mentions her depression and loneliness and alot of awful human beings have been spamming her to go end herself on her insta since the news broke out too like what the fuck is wrong with people?

[gathyou.livejournal.com]

Those messages are so awful... Right now it seems that comments on her insta are rather filled with love and support, I hope it's enough to drown the hate ;_;

[violoncelliste.livejournal.com]

this sounds beautiful but the last line is terrifying. i honestly hope that people are reading to much into it but i swear to god, better safe than sorry.

[honey-baymax.livejournal.com]

I woke up today, hoping it was just all a terrible nightmare. Reading taeyeon's note hit me hard all over again and made me cry again. Like everyone else, I'm also worried about her and hope she has a strong support system around her.

[adlyeith.livejournal.com]

I hope she has a good support system around her right now, this just made me tear up again.

[gathyou.livejournal.com]

They are such beautiful, heartbreaking words :( I hope she's surronded with love right now, I can't imagine how it is for her. They always seemed so close and understanding of each others' hardships... I can't help feeling a little worried about her right now

[benihime99.livejournal.com]

<3

[kamoteatmani.livejournal.com]

Shit, this was too much. I cant fathom how much pain she must be going through, and I can only hope she has people she can lean on at this very moment.

[zui-circus.livejournal.com]

you can feel her sadness T_T

[timetobegin.livejournal.com]

My heart goes out to her. I've experienced the loss of a loved one again myself this year and the feelings, when you are already dealing with mental health issues on a daily basis, are overwhelming. Grief is horrible and renders everything so completely useless. This situation brings back memories. I hope everyone around Jonghyun can support each other through all this.

[hitthoselightz.livejournal.com]

this was a beautiful message

it made me cry and i usually never cry, i cant imagine how she must feel :( you can really tell she loves and adores him

[zionarmin.livejournal.com]

You can tell she had the deepest of loves for him. If this is hard for me, as a fan, I can't imagine what she must be feeling as a close friend. I cried reading this.
I hope she has a good support system helping her cope with this.

Please make sure to leave her a nice comment on that IG post, people have been nasty to her in the past and she doesn't need that right now.

[mewgical.livejournal.com]

I missed the original posts on this because my internet was out for a few days and saw it this morning. I was so numb to this. I made the mistake to read the letter, but the words blurred together and I couldn't get a total grasp on it. This happens when I get into heavy depression. Maybe it's for the best, but he feeling of it resonated with me. I didn't cry until now reading this. I honestly hadn't really got into Shinee, I was a casual fan. But I feel for Jonghyun so much knowing how he dealt with depression for so long.

Sorry to spill this here, just wanted to get my feelings out there as I missed the other post.

I hope someone is there for the SM artist, specially Taeyon as that last line has me worried (probably more than it should), and SM let's them get help for this or connects them with help. Quite a few of them have been very open about dealing with depression, and even if they were not close to Jonghyun this is bound to effect them deeply. I know fans will throw a fit but I hope they cancel Exo's concerts set up for this weekend. I know they canceled some events for the other artist, but it being several concerts I have a feeling they'll make them do it.

[pepsi-twist9.livejournal.com]

Take care of yourself also! Even if I don't know you I'm on your side. If it's too much to handle take a breather.

[xxhna.livejournal.com]

i can't imagine what taeyeon is going through. i hope that she has support around her. i hope everyone who is dealing with his death has support and strength to go through this. their relationship was special to me. almost like soulmates? like they understood each other better than most.

[yoonjeonghan.livejournal.com]

taeyeon :(
this has to be so hard for her, they’re so similar and they’d been together for so long. I hope she has a good support network around her right now.

It still doesn’t feel real.

[digitalqueen.livejournal.com]

i saw the jungmo video too, i cant imagine how his close friends and family feel like. he couldn't bring himself to enter the hall, kept stopping and turning around, just so sad

[spread.livejournal.com]

Beautiful message.
I always loved their relationship with each other.

I remember how shook I was when I learned of the Milk Club, all those years ago.
Hope she has a great support net surrounding her.
She's gone through so much and continues too...

Hwaiting!